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Silver Linings….

It’s been a year.

After I wrote that last post I hit a Blog wall of some kind, and nothing would get as far as making it onto the Blog. I’ve had lots of ideas though.

So let’s start.

Looking East from Hokitika.

Looking East.

I’ve driven over Arthur’s Pass to Hokitika for Easter, specifically to take photos. I’ve brought two cameras and three lenses: the wonderful Fuji X-E1 with the 18mm f2 and the 35mm f1.4 – both fantastic lenses – and my beloved Contax G1 with the incredible Zeiss 45mm f2 (loaded with Kodak Portra 400). I’ll write about these two wonderful artistic tools in another post.

Hokitika is a small town on the West Coast of New Zealand’s South Island. I’ve always loved this coast, and I’ve realised while here that it is exactly twenty years since I first discovered this part of New Zealand. I’ve had a feeling lately there’s a lot more to discover around here than first meets the eye. Of course there’s the beach, and the coast. But if you turn to the East side of the road, there are forests, lakes, waterfalls. And beyond those the ever-present mountains.

“The wild West Coast” is renowned for its copious amounts of rain. In fact, rain was forecast for every day of my visit.

But as someone famous once said:

GO FORTH AND FEAR NOT THE RAVAGES OF TIME.

So I went.

And it poured…

River mouth, Hokitika.

The fisherman’s point at the river mouth.

Dorothy Falls, Lake Kaniere.

Dorothy Falls, Lake Kaniere.

But then the sun came out…

West Coast sand, West Coast river rocks.

West Coast sand, West Coast river rocks.

As it almost always does…

The warm sand on my feet, the warm sun on my skin.

The warm sand on my feet, the warm sun on my skin. The contented glow.

What a beautiful day. After the rain, the sun is so appreciated. I was loving the warm sand on my bare feet, digging my toes in deeper. The sun warm on my arms. The sound of the river-pebbles rolling in the wash of the waves up the sand. Shorts and a tee shirt. Alone on an unfamiliar beach. This was the summit of my Easter. It felt like new life. A gift from God. And isn’t that what Easter’s all about?

For a creative change, I’d decided to shoot black and white that day, and square format. I was also using a polarising filter. (The Fuji’s in-camera B/W Film Simulation also had a simulated red filter.)

Somehow it all came together for me on the beach that day, and I wandered around in a peaceful contented glow. This photo captures all that for me, and I feel it every time I look at it.

I’m loving the square format. It’s a real pleasure – a really stimulating creative change – and things seem to fall into place within that frame in a very satisfying way for me.

Lake Mahinapua, near Hokitika, West Coast NZ.

Lake Mahinapua.

The road.

The road.

It’s been a great few days.

And now it’s time to hit that road. Blue skies await.

The Old Man.

What’s Playing: The Eagles – New Kid In Town

I Have Planned Ahead For You….

I have only alluded to this before here in this Blog, but a couple of days ago I found on my computer a photo I took at the beginning of last year of a page in a book, and it got me thinking about what happened to my wife Karen and I, and what God did with me after that.

In mid 2009 I lost my darling wife Karen to cancer. My heart completely broke, and a deep numbness set in.

Everything for me went grey. Nothing had colour any more. All I could see was brokenness, mess, disorder, chaos. Dried grey leaves everywhere.

He said to me, see the beauty in the chaos.

There is hell all around us, tragedy, heartbreak, pain, anguish, horror, greed, war, collapse, fear. I know about those. But if you look for it there is beauty in amongst it too. Everywhere. Comfort, encouragement, love, reunion, tears of joy, companionship, colour, pattern, light. He is amongst us holding our hands. Despite things not working out, not coming together, not falling into place, not going well. Despite all that. Immanuel. There is beauty in the chaos. If you look for it you can find it.

And gradually the sun started to come back out.

I HAVE PLANNED AHEAD FOR YOU. (Sorry - I don't recall the book or its author.)

It blows me away to think that God knew all this would happen. Not only that, but He planned ahead to make sure I would survive the experience. Did He plan FOR it to happen? I don’t know. Personally, I don’t think so. But He did KNOW it would happen – He knows everything after all – before, during and after. I think a lot of things He hasn’t planned to happen, but He knows they will happen, so He plans ahead to see us through them and work good out of it. He has planned ahead for me. What your personal belief and take on that is, is up to you. Me: it blows me away.

Karen van der Sluis.

And from there I am reminded how God planned ahead for Karen. He planned ahead for her from before she was born. He planned ahead for all the life she would bring to those around her. He planned ahead for her for after her tough years, He planned ahead for her for after she got sick, He planned ahead for her for our “chance” meeting that day, He planned ahead for her for love and life and joy with me, He planned ahead for her for when her earthly strength waned, He planned ahead for her for after she left here holding hands with Him and continued the life He’d planned ahead for her for after that. The life she’s living now. He planned ahead for that.

I think of her holding His hand every day. Laughing, running, talking, dancing, thinking, discovering, loving, enjoying, singing, learning, creating, BEing. And that means everything to me.

It’s all going to be ok. It’s all in the plan.

The Old Man.

What’s Playing: Sheryl Crow – Every Day Is A Winding Road

A Symbol Of Change…

Gerber Hinderer Rescue

a sign of things to come…

something a long time in the making…

challenging…

exhilarating…

overwhelming…

irresistible…

daunting…

hard-fought…

something that has even managed to make The Grouch smile…

On Standing and Staring…

Standing and Staring - Looking out of WWII bunker, Godley's Head, Christchurch, New Zealand

What is this life if, full of care
We have no time to stand and stare.
No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.

No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass,
No time to see, in broad day light,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.

No time to turn at beauty’s glance
And watch her feet, how they can dance.
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

W. H. Davies

1911

Why Blog…

Is it to show off?

Is it to ramble about nothing and try to get the world interested?

Or is it to bring some sun into someone’s grey day?

Beachside Sunshine. Tamarama Beach, Sydney, Australia. Winter.

Is it so that I can express something of my heart to the world?

Jackets in the afternoon sun.

Is it to share some of what makes me tick; to connect with others who share the same feelings?

Rivendell All Rounder lugs. Photo from Rivendell site.

Contax G1. Photo from Contax site.

Rivendell Rambouillet and Matisse

Rivendell Rambouillet overlooking Lyttelton Harbour sunset

Voigtlander Bessa R4a

Map of Christchurch, New Zealand

Kermit goes for coffee

 

Is it simply so that I express my creativity, and publish or exhibit something?

South Australia Sunset Legs

Is it so an artist can reveal her vision?

Paint Blob

 

Is it just to help me think?

South Georgia - Dad gazing from boat.

 

Is it all of the above?  What do you think?

The Old Man.

What’s Playing: Dave Dobbyn – Slice Of Heaven

A Rather Normal Day…

am sitting at the dinner table enjoying a well-deserved flat white after a day of training…

Karen comes into the kitchen… I ask, “How was your day?”…

Karen… “Good!”

and goes on… “I was outside this morning talking to Dad, when Uncle John rang him, desperately trying to get in touch with Uncle Pat. While Dad was on the phone, Pat pulls up in his truck, so Dad hands him the phone so John can talk to him.”

“Pat hangs up from the call to report that Jonny G has just died. Which was a surprise to Pat, since he had just come back from visiting Jonny G in the hospital because of his recent heart attack. Pat says that Jonny G seemed in good spirits and was recovering well, so must have happened suddenly.”

“After a bit of discussion between Pat, Dad and myself, Pat pulls out his mobile and calls Jonny G’s niece, you know she is his only family, to report that Jonny G has died. Pat and her make arrangements to meet at Jonny G’s house later to make plans for the funeral and wake.”

“We spent awhile talking about the new footpaths the council workers were laying along Hincks Street and Dad proceeded to get in a major argument with the engineer about the drainage and storm sewers, which we found really quite amusing. Dad was ranting and telling the engineer that he was a numbskull and completely worthless while the engineer was dodging the swinging shovel Dad had in his hands. Could have sold tickets to it, entertainment for the whole street. Went on for about a half-hour keeping everyone in stitches.”

“I hear Pat’s mobile ringing, which he does not notice because Dad and the engineer are still at it. I tell Pat his phone is ringing. It is John on the phone… Jonny G is alive now!”

“Pat asks John for an explanation and he confirms that he was told by the hospital staff and he saw Jonny G’s corpse being transferred down the hall to the morgue. Johnny G was dead to rights!”

“Pat is now in a panic… so Jonny G is not dead? No! John replied that he just spoken to Jonny G in recovery and he is very much alive and reporting that there is nothing on the other side.”

“Uncle Pat is all flustered but quickly rings the niece to report that her uncle Jonny G is not dead now and there is no need to meet this afternoon. Uncle John said that he checked in on Jonny G before leaving work and he was in fine spirits and set to come tomorrow.”

“What a crazy day… what do you think?”

I just drain my coffee cup… shake my head… and think… just a normal day in my life…

The Grouch

We live in a very large, two story house with Karen’s parents and her 93 year-old grandmother. There is a complete 3-bedroom residence on each floor. We live upstairs. Karen’s family has lived on this corner since 1938 or thereabouts.
Karen’s Dad and his younger twin brothers were born here. The twin uncles… Patrick and John… never married… finally left home at the age of 30 by buying the house next door. Patrick retired as an engineer from QANTAS after 30 years of service… John is on his fourth career working at the hospital as a pharmaceutical courier.
Jonny G is an elderly… as in ancient 90-something… neighbour man that was never married and lived at home with his mother until she died about 10 years ago. Uncle Pat does errands, chauffeurs, organises stuff for Jonny G.

Whewww… Been A Long Time…

can’t believe how long it has taken me to get back on-line… in the technological melt-down… I managed to lose my passwords to access the blog… finally found the password yesterday…

seems the Old Man has been holding the fort without me… but now has gone and busted his ribs again… thought he would have learned by now… guess you cannot teach an old dog new tricks…

in spite of the delay… it seems that I did not lose anything to valuable in the crash… although it has been a learning experience and I have a much better understanding of computers… how they work… and hopefully how to avoid a complete black-out again…

what really annoys me is how dependent I have become on technology… not good…

The Grouch

Rib Tickling…

Niner Down

The smart way to fracture ribs.

One moment I’m riding, flying along this fantastic Wanaka lakeside trail, catching back up to the others, then suddenly I’m on the ground, winded.

I broke my ribs the last two years running, each time skiing, each time the same side, each time the same pattern, just different ribs. (I don’t like skiing any more.) (I’ve been skiing since I was four, so I guess I’ve done well, really.)

This felt like that, but five weeks into the process.

So here I was later feeling sorry for myself…. But fool that I am, I hadn’t seen it this way: this is the smart way to fracture ribs. Or bruise them. Or bump them. Or whatever it was. Dad came to stay, and it was he who pointed it out: I’d saved myself five weeks of pain and suffering!

Maybe I am doing something right?

Of course, if you’ve looked at this photo closely, you’ll notice the front wheel didn’t fair too wheel either.

I still grimace when I twist out of bed in the morning from horizontal to upright…. If you’ve broken ribs, you know what I’m talking about. And you’re probably smiling.

The Old Man.

What’s Playing: Diana Krall – East of the Sun (and West of the Moon) [Fantastic song, with a great guitar solo. And a wonderfully thought-provoking title.]

Running With The Bulls…

Kennedys Bush Night Climb, Port Hills, Christchurch

Darn cold over here. Even for me. But amazing.

Found myself pedalling hard the other Thursday night, in the dark, in the cold, peering ahead with my fading 20 year old lights flaring back at me off the swirling fog, with six others; stripped down to shorts and a thermal top, sweating, slogging out the K’s up a long, muddy, steep, sloppy, cow-manure-laden climb, dodging huge shaggy black and white striped bulls looming suddenly out of the mist on either side of us, sliding around trying to make headway, and eventually topping out, climbing over another stile, rolling, then looking down and discovering a road had appeared under my wheels! Dark asphalt and a white broken centreline. The disorientation was fantastic. It was the Summit Road. We’d got to the top. All climbs do eventually come to an end! Blocked in tight on all sides by the impenetrable fog, we spun down the flashing white lines beneath our wheels in a madness of hesitant headlong rushing, straining to see ahead, heavily conscious of the cliff wall to our left and the lightly fenced drop into oblivion on our right. Soon the cattle grid at Dyers Pass juddered beneath our wheels and we paused to reassemble; then it was down the Dyers Pass Road, ever-downwards by Braille, riding nestled amongst the others to see by their light, ending at the Elevate Bar for endless hot potato chips, wedges, beers, and planning over maps and notes for our 3-day Heaphy Track traverse in mid-August.

Now, THIS is what I came for!!

The Old Man

What’s Playing: Sting – Bring On The Night

The Things Of Life…

Scanning, searching.

It’s been a long silence, and if you’ve been faithfully coming back here looking for an update, thank you for your patience.

A lot’s been going on these last three weeks. Happy things, sad things, fun things, hard things. Visitors from out of town. A tough anniversary. A computer failure. Looking for a job. New friends.

All those things bring interruption. Needless to say, bicycles have been ridden, cameras have been fiddled with and their shutter releases pressed, and caffeine* has been consumed. Life has gone on. Just haven’t got far beyond that.

But The Grouch and I are far from finished in the things we want to share here, so keep coming back!

Thanks.

The Old Man

What’s Playing: Sheryl Crow – Run, Baby, Run.